Based on the overall style of answers yesterday it seems that which is often avoided/not trained enough is….
Anything that causes the ego discomfort 🤣
It’s understandable.
No one wants their peers to seem them in anything other than the light they THINK they ought to be seen in so that it allows the glue of the ego to hold together the unsteady pieces of the persona.
It’s quite funny really 🦋
Often there’s a lot of talk about how people don’t care for the thoughts, opinions of judgement of others and yet our actions tell a very different story.
Not to mention how much energy we put into cementing the thought of what the surmise things ought to be.
I’m sure you’ve projected such a thought on to people🧠
I certainly have and have also had thoughts placed on me too.
My classic one (gym wise) – you’d do better to be leaner🧐
The one pushed on me – You’d do better to be bigger 💪
As you can imagine my mind was attaching expectations/outcomes on those who in my eyes were carrying more fat than they needed, which to me made their size irrelevant because it was just the result of excess fat.
And truth be told this thought still lingers needlessly.
Seriously, at this stage it even pisses me off when it crops up 🤣
It’s like – ‘You again!? Jeez will you just give it a rest already.’
The mentally destructive desire to just be right for the sake of being right (or that’s how this madness justifies itself) really is a pointless endeavour that just serves to alienate more people than it does convince them that your intentions and wishes for them are positive.
Honestly I see very little point in such a thing now.
Yet it still persists in pestering me like a mosquito 🦟
It is funny though when you really think about it.
Why is being right so important to us as a species?
Logically we can look to evolution, experience, society and so on, but beyond that it begs the questions…
Why do YOU want to be right?
Have a ponder on that and please do share your answer because I only know the madness within this space between my ears and would greatly appreciate a deeper perspective and insight from the space between your ears ☺️
And one more thing, give we will avoid what causes the metaphorical sphincter of the ego tighten up.
What are you avoiding in your training you KNOW isn’t wise for no other reason than you don’t want to look or be perceived a certain way for doing it 👀
Be honest.
On my end it’s dialling back on the weights and upping the bodyweight/mobility/movement/flexibility work🤸♂️
Why?
Ego & fear.
Specifically the loss of what was (even though it wasn’t much) and also that there’s a lot of individuals that would love nothing more than to see my with less than I have regarding muscle, strength, leanness etc.
All so they could take swipes and pot shots 😂
Why would I care – now that’s a question I’ve really wrestled with answering.
It boils down to people taking great joy in being able to look down in me (yep, something as minor as that) because of being subject to that a lot in early life I made a bargain with myself at some point to not let that happen again because of how it felt.
I dug even deeper than that and really found an answer that wasn’t really that nice, even the thought of writing it now turns my stomach, but it was… is this…
“Don’t look down on me you piece of shit because I’m better than you and I’ll prove it.”
🤮🤮🤮
Yea, I know. Writing that comes with a lot of shame because it’s a shameful thing to say because it was nothing more than the lingering hurt from being a kid that got the shit kicked out of him several times by people that were older, bigger, stronger and nastier.
So the result was to get stronger, more capable and vicious so that if such threats cropped up again they’d be met with immeidate action🤦
Honestly it was the attitude of a child.
Pointless, șelf destructive and sad.
Hence dealing with that shit was necessary because it just wasn’t useful in the slightest and only served to keep alive lingering ghosts and a point to prove that didn’t even need proving in the first place 😂
F**k sake, one is truly a fool.
However that’s life, and just is. Although once aware of such a thing we can choose to deal with it and move on, which isn’t too smooth a journey, but it is worth it in the end.
Well, that really did turn into a ramble.
As always, please do leave your thoughts below.