Why do you try to be something you’re not?
As tempting as it is to play a role flawlessly, it’ll never be you and as a result you’ll always be on edge, anxious someone will find out and mercilessly unmask you for all to see.
Leaving you broken and wallowing in an endless flood of shame.
So here is my advice; stop pretending and defending that is the real you because it’s not.
The fitness industry is rife with this.
Online persona’s are very far removed from that of the one owned in reality, I’d even go as far as to say it may be the reason so many more people suffer from anxiety these days. The pressure of trying to live up to who they proclaim to be online is just too much, so these being anxious as an excuse not to go outside or be with people that might cause their house of cards to come crumbling down.
Like it or not we can’t change who we are.
This is not to say we can’t become a better person though, yet there still needs to be that acceptance of what the raw source material is.
If you’re a piece of shit to the very core then that’s your lot in life, however you can concisely choose not to do shitty things to others.
Perhaps you’re someone with a heart of gold who puts on a tough demeanour, stop it. You’re not going to win any prizes or acting like a tough person when that’s not you, yet you can learn some resilience.
Too many people talk of change, or being the best version of themselves and yet they ironically don’t even who they are.
How can you hope to change that which you don’t understand or even know?
As a person we need to embrace everything we are and simply be content with just being.
Once this hurdle is past us we can become more self aware.
The longer you hide behind who you say you are in the internet or pretend to be in real life, the longer you will suffer.
Don’t do that to yourself.
Go take a long hard look at the image of the person you portray, is that really you or the you you wish you were.
Acknowledge the raw materials at the essence of your heart and soul because you can’t change those for anything else what is there is there, you’ve got what you’ve got, however you can refine them over time.
Who know, perhaps that lump of coal if given enough time and the right pressure will oneway reveal itself to be something more, something that’s always been there, or maybe it won’t.
Regardless, you’ve got to take the first step by taking a good long look inwards.
You should investigate this thoroughly.